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((Brand New..."The Quiet Things No One Ever Knows"))

--morning--to much of my surprise my mother made me angry again...AHH!. sometimes i just want to punchher in her face...although i know its messed up, but damn she gets on my nerves.and OMG! she is making the biggest deal about me wanting to take this guy to Sadies. my mother is full of shit!

--Spanish I--i think i'm finally getting the hang out this Spanish language thing. i kinda makes sense to a certain extent. but when u start using them full sentences...i'M LOST!

--Am. Lit. H--crap. so we have this debate and we didn't have the so called RIGHT answer. as i'm up there i make this REALLY important political statement about the book, which is a plus, but i couldn't explain which is a downer...  i also failed a vocab quiz...lol

--Orchestra--i'm the worst cello player ever...haha.

--Lunch--today i hung out with the guy i want to ask to Sadies. it was cool. we were just talking. not like TALKING but like talking as friends...(hopefully we become more than friends)...

--Chem H--we had a test on lambda and upsilon shtuff. i did okay. then we watched a Bill Nye  video...(can't they find anything else better than those?)...but w/e

--Alg II/Trig H--I HAVE A SLEEPING DISORDER! i will admit it!...i cannot stay awake during her lectures if it could save my life. its like i'm awake all the way up until she lectures then i'm out...LIKE THAT! i'm so lost.

--After Hours--had a short little volleyball practice. big waste of time. practice was flat and gay. we have a game on monday and more 'n' likely we'll play like shit. oWELL

thats it...my day kinda sucked!...owell once again...LAt!

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    ((Story of the Year..."Anthem of Our Dying Day"))

So i met this guy...can't mention his name. but i think he's cool and i'm thinkin about asking him to Sadies. But then again i was already like talking to this other guy before i met the other guy. wtH do i do? i'm still thinkin...... (but this guy that i met......i don't know...its like...when i talk to him i don't know what to say. i act all stupid and ditsy. daMMiT...i think he thinks that i'm an idiot, but i'm not...i don't think. but yea...

                   >>>neWayZ<<<

classes are going bad. i have like 2 C's. that can never be good. AHH! i'm so screwed. and my parents are gonna kill me when they get my report card for the first quarter. mmm...and i hope that they let me play basketball. speaking of basketball, this season is gonna be tight. we have 2 new players and they are pretty damned good. hmm..what else...nothin..

i wanna ask thIS GUY to Sadies. still thinkin....

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WAY TOO MUCH VOLLEYBALL FOR ONE WEEKEND!!! i had a stinkin tournament this weekend. 2 more weeks of volleyball and its

            OVER and hELLO basKETBaLL! so were playin a game and she caught the ball. i would have to say that was the oddest moments in my life of sports. i mean...i couldn't

                                                           say a word, i was jsut in shock. hmm..enough about that...i met this guy...hes pretty hot. i have a small crush on 'em...lol. i sound like a 5 year old. owell...thats how i act so be it!

       i have recently obtained information about my mental state. i was told it was not normal...if u wanna know more..talk to me...

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HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO THE TMED!!!  THE BIG 21!!!...your really old...lol. yesterdays homecoming game was a huge mistake. i think if we forfeited we would've had less shame then if we played. i mean, they fumbled on a back lateral. who does that??...neWAYz...today is the day where everyone gets dressed up for an hour of dance, 2 hours of eating, and 3 hours of love making. my day today consists of helping my church because i HAVE to. imagine...Mary...helping with church on her own free will?? SHE MUST BE ON CRACK!!!

can't wait til basketball season starts. i'm excited, although i haven't touched a basketball since July...oops! hope coach isn't too mad at me. hmm...my birthday is in November. i was excited about being 16 but now i don't know why. its just an extra year of living a stupid pointless life. w/e. umm...thas it...LAt!

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0 out of 5 hopes. i win for the lowest amount achieved. i NEED to tell him, although i KNOW he already knows...i think i NEED to tell him for myself and have everything of my chest. were so close, but i don't know if he wants to take it to the next level. being friends for awhile and then going into a relationship is usually easy. but with him it just seems so...hard...like the words won't come out of my mouth. i look at him and think all these thoughts but to say them would be chaos. i write my feelings on paper and throw them away. i wish i could do that...just throw feelings away, because i have feelings for other people, and one REALLY likes me...which isn't a god thing because i'm falling for HIM. i'mma tell HIM how i truly feel tomorrow and i hope all goes well. if not, then i'm a bitch that doesn't deserve anyone. but if i went out with HIM, i think that i would be so much happier. right now i'm in this suspense. we flirt ALOT and have like 4 classes together, but i don't KNOW if its for real, or just another tHinG.

*****tomorrow is JuDGEmeNT DAY...hope all goes well *****

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---that i have the balls to ask HIM to Sadies---i find MYSELf before it's too late---get good grades cuz right now i'm like failing---that i becomean AthLETE that serves some purpose.

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